Musings

Yesterday was bad....I saw for the first time the beginning of the end. But then that is like skipping to the last chapter even before I have really got started on what I want to say.

And what I want to say is what these last few months have been like to me and my family ever since my wife was diagnosed as having HCC (Hepato Cellular Carcinoma) - that's Liver Cancer in medicalese (did I invent a new word?).

What I want to talk about is how friends and relatives have reacted....what the docs did....how my employers reacted...my kids...

And about what I have learned about the disease...

About God...Religion...Astrology....

About alternate systems of medicine....

About other similarly placed people I have met....

About my renewed views on what I think constitutes "family"...

About some really wonderful people who instinctively knew how to support my family...and others who had no clue...

About people who thought that if they speak to me I would ask them for help..and hence avoided me altogether...

About a doctor who was more than a doctor...and the most wonderful person I think I have ever met...

About a very special friend who helped me keep my sanity even when my world collapsed around me....

And above all about a very brave person...the bravest I have seen...Sujatha, my wife.

Soon..

Gururaj

# posted by Gururaj @ 8:54 PM